Fairy GodFather

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I feel like an alien from mars? Or maybe i'm really an involve of gorilla?

Pls people! I'm not dying yet la! I'm a human that need to rant more often than other people does only.

If you know me you'll sure know that sometime or another I'LL RANT ALL THE UNWANTED STUFF IN MY BLOG POST AND MOVE ON WITH LIFE! Hoping that my ranting do helps to get out unwanted stuff. But nahs. It's useless. Just for the sake only.
Not a use at all!!

Well. Ty for all the cares and concerns. But sometimes i just don't feel like entertaining those comments/msgs/calls. But i know you guys care! Ty very much much okk? (:

Don't see me like a alien pls! I wanna be princess? (:

Msges start to come in ardy! Asking me am i awake O.o
Well. woosshhh for prayer mtg now.

Edits on
5.28am; 11 aug o8
(See i can wake up early de!)


Swimming as per normal as it is sunday. Slacking, popcorn, hot milo in robert's office. I'm down with a lil eye infection due to the (too much chlorine) pool. Patrick just got it change on saturday, that's bad cause my eyes are red and swollen. And i'm typing in doubled vision and blurness eye sight.

My randomness starts on my way home. Chose to walk home instead. Breakdown and cry as i walk. Really ty God for he's protection that i'm not molested or being knocked down by cars as i cross the road while crying.

Heavy burdens nearly kill me! Well, at that point of time my mind was just filled with "just let me collepse here and never ever get up and the world can go on without me."

But thank God, that msg came in and "fairy godfather" appeared! Though it's so super embarassing to sit in the middle of the road crying like no body busniness!! So tutu can?!

Thanks for the laughter and tissue! How i hope after laughing troubles and burdens can wooshh and be gone with the laughter. Leaving me with the sweet spirit for forever. ):

Yea! You're right! I'm really not good with managing my own worries and yet i love to worry here and there! It's saddening! How i also hope i can not worry that much. A lil lesser worry will helps so so much and make great different!

I've promised not to talk to you anymore about all this but can i keep to my own promise? Pls call tonight!! It's the last time ever le? ): I'm sorry and i'm thankful to have you! I don't wish to be part of your burdens! But i cnt kick this habit away.

Maybe it's really the fact that i'm so a like to my bro bahs. I'm unreasonable at times too. Irritating in different way too. But still...

Sophia don't feel like talking to anyone now! Pls just leave me alone. Don't get too in depth of me. I'm afraid you'll just regret and leave one day, leaving me with brokeness waiting for healing.

And i always hated this cycle! Detested to the core!!

L O V E

"Seriously i need LOVE!"

I may seems to be talking nonsense but who really understand what kind of situation i am in now? If you don't, than just shut up and read on if not shoo. As usual, don't bother leaving comments for my ranting entry. I'll just rant and get over it soon, i guess!

I'm Not EMOING or getting emotions breakdown hor! That's too negative for me now. I'll still rant and rant but am not facing it with my grumpyness hoping someone to pity me and offer me some fake concern. That's too cheap! Ya right! I only got to realise it now.. But still not too late (:

School tests sucks! History lessons suck! Brother vincent sucks! Wallet sucks! My feelings suck! Waking up early sucks! Not able to talk to you suck! Flickle minded sucks! etc... When all this start falling out of place, Sophia's attitude sucks too..

I've been ranting to various people i want a Boy.f ! So that he can love me more than i love myself ? Shitty crap!

Have been thinking what it really mean when it invovle LOVE(relationship wise). A real one!

Well. It is more than just having someone to cuddle, someone to share with, someone to have dinner with, someone to sms you sweet lovely msg, someone who do not mind talking to you all day long till the phone line burst, someone who can hold you across the road safely, someone who you can hook your arm to when you're walking to feel warm and comfy, someone who can kiss you goodnight and goodbyw at your doorstep when he send you home, someone who do not mind your 24 hours sms/phone calls,etc...

It is an COMMITMENT to one another! Not those outwardly stuff but thoes very super duper important INWARDLY personality, heart, soul, mind! Not one party but TWO! Not forcefully but willingly to be commited! It's for lifetime, not only for now! etc..

(I feel like a love professor) O.o

I wanna go to the place; but i don't know where.
I wanna meet the special someone; but i don't know who.

Dear God, Who will my special someone be? Who will be my Prince and make me his princess?How long more will it takes? I'm impatience but still i'll wait! God's plan rule.

P/S : Pls don't make me found interest in you! I wouldn't know how to control myself.. and i'm serious..