...and i prayed

Will we always be able to obey what we're called to do by God?

God is able and mighty! But we're not.. There'll be times that we fail but God nvr will! He loves us so so much that he's willing to die on the cross just for each individual - US! But why still, people who knows and see easter drama over and over again every year still do not believe in Him? The alpha and omega!

What will happen if 2000 years ago, Jesus said, " Uhh daddy God, it's painful.. Can i take alternative route instead of being nailed on this cross when i'm like innocent?" I mean of cause Jesus won't say that. But if he really come down from it when those phrasisees mocked and spat at him. What do you think this world had become now?

Jesus oh Jesus! Your agape love for me is always so addictive and calm.. When i am panicking, it's your sweet voice that calm me down.. When i'm so frightened when i'm alone in the night, it's your presence that overwhelmes me and assured me you'll always be there. When i don't know what to do, it's your creative nature that promted me to think of something out of nothing. When my unforgiveness spirit overruled my forgiving spirit, it's your LOVE that taught me how to forgive.

Daddy, i'm not worthy of all this. I make mistakes over mistakes. I swore today again after getting mad reading about a sadist story of an young boy being rape by his stepfather uncontrollbly. I hate one person just because she give me that face. and many many more..

You see?!! I'm so bad!! And yet, You, the most highness God, choose to forgive me over and over again.. And showered me with your most most lovingly LOVE! And it's unconditionally...How is it possible that people still don't believe in you?!

Stupidly, i always pray that You could just turn them all to your ways.. But after all, you won't cause you love them and want them to have choice and not forcing them like what i always do.. D;

It's you and only you i yearn to be with, always and forever.

I love thee Lord(:

Why do arglogist(or whatever they're called) just love to predict on when you're returning again? That really curious me alot!