Helplessness that need to be delivered

It's kinda frustrated when i have lots of dreams in mind but not sure and don't know how to go and fulfil it! ):

It all seems impossible, unrealistic, etc. But i really do wanna have a try on it! (SIGH!) The frustration, heart ache, helplessness can't help but all flows out tgt with my tears..

There's couple of nights that i prayed silently and hopes only God hears me and really hears me! I prayed that i really want all of it to happen and come to past but i'm really helpless and have no ideas where and how to start! That kind of fear that overwhelms me when i don't even know who can i shared it with. Who then will not be the one that will pull me down, pokes my dreams bubbles and turns me into a timid girl that never will dare to dream and share anymore..

God, that kind of helplessness is really unbearable!! Screaming into a blank space no longer helps anymore!! );

But still, i'm gonna believe in You!

(I really hope that what i wanted is your will for me!)