Why felt this way instead? ``

How did my didi turn into lyk this? He can even backstab and did such vicious thingy to me. Maybe the word "vicious" is a lil too serious. But this is exactly how i feel at tt very moment.

Anw, not goin into it. im not in my goody mood now):

What he did, makes my mum choose to believe tt his right and im wrong, mummy misunderstands me. A weird freaky feeling struck me deep down instead of tt angryness and "bu shuang" and argue-back-on-the-spot attitude i'll usually react.

Wth was tt freaky feeling? i dun understand!! really, seriously, i dun.

Heart pain after being misunderstand and being scolded with nasty words which kinda hurts a lil by your mum?? Hahaha man.

Sorry Elson!! im stuck and really dunno what to reply you after tt, so i choose not to. ):

Go away. im not here to listen to all your nasty stuff!! do you know you speak words with thorns tt poke my heart? why cant you be lyk daddy? why must whatever ah di do mean right, good, perfect while im the totally opposite? why only daddy understands me, having the trust in me, giving me the warm and speaks to me nicely even thou im not behaving myself? why cant you just believe me lyk the way you believe ah di?

you go away too!! so what if mummy favours you more? i dun give a damn care abt it. yea, you're the youngest. so? doesnt mean you can be the biggest bully alright? my patient towards you is running out of limit. (yea. so what if my patient runs? you still have mummy as your "kao shan") Stop all your nonsense pls. will you? im a living human lyk you too. i dun lyk to be accused anyhow lyk you dun lyk it too. you know i cant do anythingy to you. so just stop, okayys. what you'll benefit by seeing mummy go crazy shouting madly at me? harrr????

i dun mean to be nasty in my words. but what more can i do? den voice it here? my "evilness" can only be express out here, not lyk you. anywhere and anyhow. what more can you ask?

[Dear God, i know im bad. but i really feel much better after typing all out. you know im not good in talking all diz. forgive me for my temper nehs. i dun wanna stand all their unreasonable which hurts again nehs. why are daddy better? lyk you're my daddy God and you are almighty. no forgeting the sweet stuff which happen, thks you God for it nehs(: change and mould me to be your better daughter, my dear daddy god. Amen]