i confess my wrong! ``

Yea. whatever i've typed in the previous post, was the outcome of my nvr-think-then-anyhow-type + angry attitude. indeed, after typing and venting everythingy out, i felt much much more better. But i kinda know, i shouldnt be reacting in this manner. after all, she's still my mummy and he's still my freaking ah di no matter what.

perhaps, i should learn to look from their adult point of view? hais.

i really dun mean it. i really dun mean to ask them go away. i'll be sad if they're really gone. sorry (x 100) alright?

i still love you mummy. seeing you treating my friends so well and chatting with "auntie" samuel so happily, i felt great. But, can i be lyk them? can communicate so well with you? i dun mean it when i make you gone real mad and throwing all the tutu "vulgarities" at me. i felt sad and pain lyk you felt it too.

Mummy, you're the best mummy. but i wan a lil more care from you? i wan to be noticed more by you. not only when i'd friends ard. but even deres only me and you. Not thru my friends telling you i top the class in my english test but thru me and i wan you to be proud of me. Sometime, i just hope i can exchange with them, to have you for a couple of mins talking nicely without shouting or scolding. Lyk the way you praised Elson last time, i just hope im the one being praised by you.

i just love the words of encouragement from you. but, i miss it so much. cause you rarely use them anymore. ): i dun blamed anyone or anythingy. cause i believe, im still not good enough for you. i can still improve more to gain all this from you.

mummy, believe me alright? i will take responsibility of my stuff and studies. i wan to done you and daddy proud without being worry by you all. And i hope, when i achieve what you all want and hope, you will give me a tight hug and say "sophia, im proud to have you as my daughter. keep it up my dear precious!" will you?

a child will always wants their parent aknowledgement in the thingy they do. yea? Everythingy is worth when daddy or mummy is standing with them on the "same path".

i think, no matter how well or whatever thingy im crapping here dun mean anything unless my actions prove it! yea?

i'll do well in my studies!! i wanna shine so brightly for Jesus in my marketplace and also to done my parent proud(:

SORRY MY DEAREST MUMMY!! you freaking mean alot alot to me(: oppss... mind your language sophia. lols:D
i love you, mummy❤