when i get real tired ): ``

i skipped english remedial ytd, because i wanna get my arts done without being mark "late submission".

Physics test and english oral examination today. Fun time slacking with yenling, pris, jun xin and jonx while waiting for our turn for oral.

ANDand; during english period, my brain-ny brings me for a "memories walk". lols. i think alot. whatever came to mind, was lyk knife carving into my heart. giving pains ): when i dun even know why i'll had this kind of weird feelings and thots. Ya larhs, its all bout him, him, him and HIM again. and abit of other thingy.

its totally true. once he knows sth bout it, everythingy cant be hidden anymore. there is a urge which keeps promting me to let it all out but not just letting him know tt lil of it all.

its lyk a lil seed which grows. trying to stop and hide it at the beginning, action start to show. once pple ard find out sth, its lyk watering the seed. pple speaks, mind start thinking. i don't wanna face it. but i cant help but grow more deeper as it accumulate more thingy of you. and on and on and on.

Memories play in my head lyk a film without melody.

shuld i or shuld i not?

will he care or will he not care to know?

Is everythingy still so under control?

why am i reacting lyk this? whats wrong?

can i be isolated from the world? so tt i wun need to care how pple wuld look at me with when im with you.

can you not care just only because when im emo or sad?
but even when im happily smiling?

does the ): msg still apply for now?
but whats stopping me from sending?

does my Emo-ness and Silence really means more than my cheeful soul?

if it is, i rather remains in silence always. so tt it wuld attracts your care for me?

i can no longer hide it anymore. with all this ??? im just bringing myself closer to goin gaga. knowing very clearly you don't mean anythingy when you care but i just have tt tutu weird feelings.

im tired and may just shut off anytime derhs!! ):

emotional week driving me gaga. don't feel lyk but still have to be fake-y with tt don't-feel-lyk-smiling face. Sorry jesus. i don't mean to be bad in my words, but human are just too fake-y. dun feel lyk smiling but no choice still act act smile. wth was tt? im tired of all this. thots haunting me.

i can just go on and on saying all my thots and tutu feeling, but i choose not too. so what if you find out all this? was it gonna help me get out of my gaga emotional "symptom"? to xJ - im joining your tutu depressed team soon! lols.

yenling said im no longer the SOPHIA she knows since sec one. i wanna know whats goin on too. i feel terrible with all this.

Don't comment on this post!! please..