i don't know ``



The journey home was in total complete SILENCE and im not alone. Again, what does silence really really mean now? the film without melody was actually playing in my head thru out. words came to my mouth but it just got stuck inside. seem lyk super glue-y glued up my lips.

keep on waiting for you to break the silence away. As, i really don't know what should be my first word. im sorry ): i don't know you're tt tired, untill i saw you sitting lyk a kid dozing-off with your mouth wide open. you look adorable! really. tt word came to my mind when the crowd in between us cleared off, i saw you.

i was weird larhs. i actually ask god whats gonna happen if the crowd don't move away and keep on blocking between us. im scared. i no longer hear any other thingy at tt very moment. totally shut off. as if im deaf. where are you? we're on the same journey home, yet we seem like strangers? i was so scared tt you'll just leave me down dere and walk off without asking me along and don't wanna care abt me anymore.

but, why do tears flow down from my eyes when i saw your msg? Frankly, i doesnt know how to react or what shuld i react just now the moment dere was only you. tt why i chose to ignore or walk away. sorry alright? i was afraid tt you'll runaway. because i was just too much in my emotions towards you.

yea. i know you were tired today. rest well kkays? pardon me if i was too much or what. bear with me alright? when im emo or mood swinging or showing you my attitude. i don't mean to, but i really do not know what to do and feels lyk reacting this way. i know you know what i mean. yea? tell me but nt hiding it from me. help me. you know i'll listen, no matter how long your "da dao li" is. yea?

let this not be a pressure to you. i don't wish what i have vent out here affects you. i don't want you to be too stress and runaway lyk last time again. just have no where to let it out. and your know i cant hide my feelings for long derhs. i'll just say anythingy if i can. i don't know how shuld i relate it to a human verbally. and so, this is why my blog is created.

i only know, don't ignore me when im attitude-ing you. sorry for all my werid emotions at different time. i don't know why im lyk this too. wth was goin on, with the way i felt towards you and everythingy? tt nvr-had-before feeling. or its a side effect of i've think too too much or worry too much?

i don't know larhs. i seem to have so so much to tell you but whenever you start asking, everythingy was lyk stuck inside ): hais. im tired too larhs. i don't know what shuld my reaction be the nxt time i see you. God, stop all this alright. but, i somehow want it to continue, in the more positive way? don't know don't know.

BUT, God creates OPPOTUNITY, but not just *blink* and the thingy i ask for appear.
must always have a heart of gratitute. Thks you God for everythingy for you're the one who protects me from everythingy. leading me thru no matter how hard my day was or gonna be. i can overcome all this in the name of Jesus.