what happen?

i'm moody now! lots of thots running in my mind. man!! it's nt abt sadness nor happiness or excitingness. whatever shit! im meeting jie in 1 hrs time and i dun feel lyk moving to get ready and stuff! ):

once again! i'm being said as 野蛮! i can be lyk last time. don't bother abt what others said abt me. but!! this time round. i feel weird? i don't think there's any wrong being 野蛮! i'll just say im been brought up lyk this. after all this's my personality. accept me as it is or shoo if you cant stand it!

but! i cnt argued back when im being said! why? there's a voice deep down in me saying i must change for a better future. but in my actual living mind lies a million of reason argueing why i shudnt change! Man!! i'll go mad la.

ya. i'm fussy, i'm 野蛮, i'm 任性, i'm undecidecive, i'm crappy, i'm weird, i'm nt demure!! SO?!?

shud i really change bcoz all this personalities isnt any good ones to my future?

if one day i turn beautifully pretty!! will still anybody screams right into my face and say i shud change my 任性, 野蛮 and be more lady-liked?!?

oh pls la!! i enjoy being myself this way!! dun come crawling to me one day saying all the craps which i don't think i'll wanna listen when i really had my dream come true being a beautifully pretty lady!

duh!!! i'm once again worned -out!!

yeaps! i lyk night life. being an "owl"! hanging out with friends till late at night! tt doesnt mean i'm an ah lian or bad girl! if this is your definition. shoo pls! i don't need them.

i've my own definition of my life! being very "rara" , talking in a very weird way of language usage doesnt mean im nt a child of God ok?

Save all your bad thinking and want say yet don't have the guts to say abt me up la! i dun need them either. i'm enjoying what i have and doin now.

want say just sprout out!! dun act in front of me as if you're being very good to me and yet behind of everythingy you're just despising me of being a child of god, desoising me of dreaming too much!

yeaps! i've the dream of being a cheerleader and being the top in fashion world!! don't despise any of them!! i can make it de!!!

yupps. tt's me! sprout whatever you have in mind abt me! i don't mind!! if you choose nt to den stop all the thinking den!