why? ``

Actually, dun really feel lyk posting today. eventually, i feel lyk sharing. theres lots of weird feeling and thinking today. Everything started out well(: but its only untill the last period, which is history lesson and we suppose to have a test, mr nair came late. we were all chatting and joking and laughing all the way. we sisters were all "di xiao-ing" Vanessa.t and SC when i suddenly felt tt SC was lyk a very good and gentleman. i dunno why. perhaps, when we "di xiao" him, he was nt lyk other guys who wuld curse and swear at us. instead he just return me with a "paisehh" look and shy smile. HAHAHAS.

doctor Ding(SC) sry ehs. was just jk all the while. dun take it to heart. you noe i go crazy wheneva deres fun in the hse. yea? LOLS :D

during the sexuality talk, when it came to part where " INFATUATION vs LOVE " , i paused awhile. my lil brainny full of qns marks. nt tt i dun understand the word, but you pops out suddenly. why? im still in the dunno side. or its simply me scare to face it?

the first time im stuck in this kind of thingy ): i try to stop it from goin any further, but it dosent seem to work. i try treating it as if nth had ever happen. it still couldnt stop me from thinking bout it. i noe i shouldnt. i cant help smiling whenever my sisters mention anything bout you. *Sweet to me* i would be so lame till i'll suddenly think of your safety outside and stuff, and started worrying. why shuld i waste my energy on you so so much? stupid enough yea?
Yenling once said to me, " stopping yourself from loving him wasnt the end of it. if it is, means it really is. cant hide derhs. face it daringly "

i get tired of my smile sometime. i get tired of my emo-ness sometime. im lyk so weird larhs ): in tt sense, my mood swings easily. moods and feelings changes fast and its kinda unstable. sorry. i didnt mean to be lidatt. i noe its hard for you guys sometimes. bear with me alright? nvr leave me alone wondering. im blur enough to "lost my way". i thks God for all of you who had give in and stand my temper so much(: