my Silence mean alot ``

i actually hated and scared of talking and pple recently till diz very moment still. dun really noe wad really happen, had a feeling tt pple are evil and scary and i ought to hide from them when i woken up. as nt usual, i dint even talk to my parent and i left for sch. met yenling dey all. i still did not utter a single word. untill banana talk to me. i felt tt its so scary to have a convesation. when reached sch, im still nt ready to speak lyk usual. in fact, im the most talkative among my clique of sister. but.. i just stood in tt fearful, evil, scary silence.

stayed in school for my arts till 5 plus and left for tuition. after tuition, headed down to bishan for CGM. i felt nth when i was alone. but tt feeling came back again when i entered peien's hse. again, im in my silence again. i felt rather tense up. sis rong rong spoke to me after tt. and.. i dint really told her wad exactly happen but thks for the chat. i feel much better after talking.

when in train goin back, i oni talk to shaun but nt... asking me why? i can oni say i hope i noe wads goin on in me too. dere seems to have a knot in my heart. a knot which is full of lots and lots of uncontrollable feelings and pains towards alot of thingy. oni by untieing tt knot can release my heart. whoes gonna do tt? no one i guess. its up to me to. but...........